I study Quantity Surveying since 2 year from 2008 and I also like to read and see the design of the building around me and the catalog. My 2^nd bro is an architect and both of for touching for the construction part. Besides that, today I just realize that I miss out important things in design and system of building and society. What are the things that I was miss out? Before of today in my mind never think about for the 残障人士。What they will think for their self, I never know and never will spend time to think what they are thinking for. Sometime I will feel hard to close with they and just friend with they liked I with my normal friends in college, office, church and hometown friends. I just think they are just need money, food, shirt support only.

Actually what is残障人士 really need from us? From today I just got it the most they need is we and the society can give them chances together serve ppl, have chances get a job and to buy their need, and they need all of us think they are just same with us liked normal ppl even though they hv some different physical look. I really thank God give me had this chance to know about it and totally changing my concept, thank you God do miracle in my life. 耶稣是公义，怜悯，慈爱，能赦罪的，他对待每一个人是从不偏心的，我知道他是特别的爱我的！

缺陷与障碍是完全不相关的，有缺陷的人并不会很直接的会有障碍，那些有缺陷的人是不喜欢别人叫他们残障人，为什么这种的名号会给到他们的呢？因为是现今我们的社会把绊脚石放在他们面前，而害他们遇到非常多的障碍，导致‘残障人’这个不好听的名号被人那样子叫着。他们并没有很大的能力来改变，但他们是非常需要我们来为他们改变着不公义的society。

Lastly, I have 1 new vision in my construction part, the construction design and construction system must design for 有缺陷的人 first, the things that can be used by 有缺陷的人 , the normal healthy ppl also can used, but some things that used by normal ppl, 有缺陷的人cannot use!

爱与关怀

Christian language is LOVE! 到底什么是爱？难道爱就是给你抱抱，或者只是问how r u? 对方一定会回应I’m fine. 我们是否会问别人r u ok now? Do u need my help?我发现每一个人都习惯问别人你吃饱了吗这一句话，但有时我会问他请问现在几点了你还问我这问题？已经半夜了还要我吃东西?!这样子是爱吗？如果这是真爱的话，我宁愿不要。还好这不是真爱，唯能给每一个人真爱的只有耶稣基督了。到现在我还没看到有任何人能那么的爱人。就算我是个基督徒也不敢大大声说我很有爱心，今天我发现我缺少以爱来关怀别人，我好自私。我没有为别人的需要想想，只不过是想保证自己将不会有任何的吃亏。我再也不想要活出这种的生活方式，我必须要向神祷告把这一切都交托给他来改变我塑造我指引我更像主耶稣因为爱我们，他知道我们每一个人真真的需要是什么，他要我们的灵魂苏醒转向他，然而他因爱我们而付出极大的代价。有时自己想一想是否也愿意以耶稣的看见看待每一件事呢？不去理会是否对自己有利益，只要是上帝需要我去做的，我都要去行！

我要‘雪中送炭’！原来我发现不能用爱来形容我，我有太多的不足，我并没有去或用行动以爱来关怀帮忙又需要的人。但我回想我之前蛮长just see & pass away the ppl who need my help..我太自私，对不起你们！如果我有在某方面伤害你的。我会向上帝祈 求教导我如何能像耶稣去爱别人。我明白why i feel far from him/her liao coz i even dunno how to love ppl and cant see dao ppl's need, then how i can say i love him/her..爱是一个冒险的行动,爱是要愿意付出代价的, 而不求任何回报,因他经看到了

Today i really need to thank you anty BeeHar and Shirley help me so much for tonight program

i really dunno how well didn't for tonight but the important point is my direction is hope the church fellowship members can learn the God words and know what we had to do for God, we can trough our money, pray, a invitation, a attitude, a smile, a help...

We do these things are not want to attract pretty girls or handsome boys think we are good or what de.. We need let others people can see the Jesus of life in ourselves. Let they know our life is different and changing and delight and peaceful and have 盼望, have a true direct bring by God.

Yeah~~ every religion sure hv their own 'God', and they are teach good things for everyone.
BUT the most different things between BELIEVE IN JESUS CHRIST is we everyone can have eternal life if we are faithful, believe,trust on HIM!! Besides that, Jesus is the only one the truth God died for everyppl's sin in this world, and let us can reach to the heaven with GOD. Compare to others religion,they don't have these expect

Tomorrow I have a Site Surveying test, but now still haven't finish study and remember all the important points. And this Friday is just left 1 1/2 day for me to complete my program for that night fellowship, haiz...still in processing it haven't finish it too..

This week i need to settle down these 2 jobs, I MUST TRUST I CAN DO IT!! Others ppl can do , why i'm not, I'm not OKU then must same great with they or better than they..everyone must improve themselves always..

One of my classmate, Yap wai seng who give me stress because he can everyday 9pm ++ already sleep liao..and his confident always make me more stressing, i feel that i lose him. Maybe i'm a person who don't like lose others ppl..dunno these is good or bad things

This year 2010, this semester, this month i started joining the education church study, "DISCIPLE", mayb it will increase my study load but i trust it is very useful for me and better i join others entertainment with my classmate. I can learn a lot of God words, my attitude will be change, My view also will more far and open...these is what God do in my life

This afternoon go Sunway Pyramid for buy the vegetable and meat for dinner...today each person just spend rm6 and hv a nice big taste dish..really really save compare go to eat baguteh..tonight i'm be the chef and cook for 5 dish for 9 ppl..luckily they said no bad for the food, then i not need so worry about it..ahahha

but cannot everyday do liked that coz it need spend a lot of time to do that..mayb just 1 or 2 month once only..

now i need to use my brain cells to think for this friday de program need how to function, it is really really urgent for me now...

i must prepare heart to study m site surveying test lo..if not then someone will feel angry and disappoint. This is what i can post =)

Haiz...after i think back for yesterday, i knew that why why and why i so stupid, why i make someone become more and more toilsome? They always think for me but why i wont always think bout them!! Really feel sorry and sorry..

Yesterday my i do not well in my structure midterm test, when i saw the question and already think i dunno how to ans, really cham lo.. scare this sem my CGPA will be drop..I must get the scholarship for going oversea study, if not then mayb just stay in m'sia study lo..

I really need to wake up right now..don follow frens go out hv a fun and spend so much money in the entertainment.. but sometime i will choose more in entertainment! I must reset my mind again..study and serve with God is the most important for me now

How come this year i feel so tired?A lot of things for me is not successfully, buy things also buy wrong, hv a fun also not fun, find a new place to live also live with unhappy, now i oredy told ppl i will move out on 1 march but how do i know today the damn useless Agent no responsible, the unit got problem also didnt tell us and price open so high rm1400 per..he really think we r rich kah? WE just a student and dunno earn money, that empire agent make me very susah now... mayb my fren wont allow me live for few week anymore, scare not place sleep liao la.. Pls HELP me pray for the God give hv a nice unit and cheap price so tat our parents wont so toilsome..

Then started a lot of assignment,presentation,midterm test is coming liao..church also hv a lot of things need to in charge!! Actually i heart sometime really wan to give out all the things coz my heart feel tired, i feel scare make parents disappoint , i scare i don hv ability to finish nicely for my things or mission.

GOD I NEED U!!!

今天我又做了一件很有趣又难得能做到的事情，那就是我今天早上奉献了我所有钱包里面的钱，但是只有RM2!! 是不是很像圣经里面所讲的故事呢？！！

This year really hv a lot of special things come over me. Last19 years ago, everytime CNY i will hv a loot of money in my pocket but this year is zero, totally different between last time.

Then now i dunno what i shall eat in lunch, mayb just eat oat or noodle again..it is really quite fun and special for me. I know the God want me to learn somethings n I believe i wont hungry until die coz God always blessing and look over me.

Still hv 5 hours ago, my family will come my kl house meet together then will be hv a nice dinner with my family again. Besides that, i also excited for 2moro morning coz we will for go Phuket Island in Thailand for 3d2n. My classmate told me that place look beautiful and must take some photo for nice memory.